Wild Irish Fairy Tales

I lay in bed thinking about so many things. Thoughts fill my mind, flooding in like a deep hole in a massive thunderstorm. I think of a certain person in my life that I just can’t escape. Perhaps because I shouldn’t try to escape, or perhaps because I was, for some reason, suppose to be tied to.
I have had a few loves in my life. I have lost a few loves in my life. I have done wrong and been done wrong. I have loved and not had the love returned, as I have been loved and not returned the love…. this is different!!
I have never shared such things with any man as I have with this one man. I have shared many things with other men that I have not with this one man..Yet, I feel tied to him. He that I have been so honest with, so honest that I question myself on why. Sometimes men just don’t want/need to know the honesty…
Why would I be so honest knowing that it isn’t good? Why would I bare my soul to someone that doesn’t get it, that doesn’t understand that he has known more of me than any person ever could or would.
Simply…Because it is how it is suppose to be!

Because it feels right!!
He doesn’t really claim to be in love with me, when asked if I am his he simply shrugs me off…yet the simple things he does, shows he does have a love for me.

“A Love”

I only wish he knew how much love it took for me to be so completely open with him. I wonder if I am wrong to do so, but then I think, how else would I be with such a wonderful man. I have never been a good and honest person with any of my past loves.
Now don’t get me wrong, I haven’t been unfaithful or lied, I have just simply avoided and answered like a riddle. I have answered questions but not directly or I side step them and don’t really answer them at all…Not with him, I feel like I can be brutally honest…Is that so bad?
I know in my heart he is a good man, and I feel, for some unknown reason, this man needs me to be honest. I don’t know if it is God, or what, that has provoked me to such a lack of mystery that I would play for any other man. Something greater than myself has given me the stregth to be completely and brutally honest…

I am thankful!